I gave you my heart

This is a poem inspired by a recent news article about a young guy who got a second chance in life with a heart transplant (his doctors did not think he was the right candidate because of his part. .. but some social bodies got together to ensure he got a new heart) and met with in an accident driving a stolen car during a police chase after having threatened an old lady, and died.

I see you get into the car,
I see you look so much better.
I see you wave your hands,
And start to zoom latter.
I think to myself.. i gave you my heart.

They said you were weak,
They said you could not be trusted.
But other believed in you,
Just needed time to get adjusted.
I think to myself.. i gave you my heart.

You proved them wrong,
All those who gave you a glance.
You went back on your word,
You spit on the second chance.
I think to myself.. I gave you my heart.

As you zoom away I look behind,
The destruction you left.
Cops chasing, people cursing,
All those believer bereft.
I think to myself.. I gave you my heart.

You have nowhere to go,
Stuck between the car and pole.
Hurting my folks, thinking you deserved,
Leaving them with a big hole.
I think to myself... I gave you my heart.

They thought I could live through you,
You could feel the love I had for the rest.
They thought you would become a better person,
With my heart beating inside your chest.
I think to myself.. I gave you my heart.

And now my heart has started to slow down,
It has lost all hope.
And here I am, fading away and thinking to myself...
Why did I give you my heart..

Pretender

Things are what they seem and not what they are,
Who knows what I see as red, you see the same.
It is a pretense that we believe in,
My thoughts may seem like it is real lame.

Ages back, it was known the world's an illusion,
We knew it and called it "Maya".
And still we believe in it as though it's real,
Searching for some place to go "Higher".

We pretend, we lie, we claim it does no harm,
Till we look into the mirror and see.
The burden we carry, the struggle we face,
The inner self trying to burst out free.

We hold back hurt, so we do not hurt anybody,
We hold back pain just the same.
We let is build and let it fester, like a volcano,
Waiting to burst one day and nothing to claim.

We pretend everything is okay when we know otherwise,
We believe we are being brave somehow.
We pretend that everyone is okay and it is not,
And keep up the pretense for now.

I would like a world where one is really free,
To be what I want to be, open never in a bind.
I would like to a world where there is no one fake,
Innocent as a child, no malice in my mind.

But I know that's never gonna happen,
And I know I am a Pretender......

Looking - by Prasad

I have spent most my life just looking..
Looking for something as time passes by.
And now when I look back and search for what I have found,
I smile at myself and feel like a fool,
Floating a balloon high in the sky.

As a child I looked for care, as a teen for inspiration,
As a young man I looked for love, nothing seemed to matter.
And then I looked for money, sure that love would come by,
And now I am still looking not sure of what I have found,
Empty pocket, empty heart, mad as a hatter.

I kept looking not know what I really wanted,
I kept looking everywhere, hoping to find it at last.
I was not even sure what I would have done if I found it,
But looking seemed to be the only thing keep me going,
In this beautiful world, both present and past.

And one day it finally dawned to me, I was going about it wrong,
It was looking that made the journey interesting and fun.
It was looking that brought me all those smiles more precious than any treasure,
It was looking that brought me so much more knowledge,
I just had to take all in and not run.

A journey of life

I was a child and free of my worries,

Holding the hand of anyone that showed me love.

Breezing through life smiling and laughing,

Dreaming of touching the sky like a beautiful dove.

I was a teen and still growing up,

Learning with every mistake that I made.

Hoping you would be there when I mess up,

Raring to forge ahead, with excitement I need.

Did not chose my family, but did choose my mates,

The most amazing thing in this world.

Helping me reach and touch the stars above,

Drawing support and love that my friends unfurled.

The stars seemed to shine brighter even on a cloudy night,

Seeing you smile surrounded by stars, oh! what a sight.

I wanted to hold you in my arms, caressed in evening light,

And your head on my shoulders it felt perfect, just right.

As I looked into your eyes, I knew for sure,

I wanted to spend every breath together.

Wrapped in the blanket of love, my heart beats for you,

Shouting to the world, “You are mine, my only treasure”.

But love seemed like a mirage, I spent chasing after,

Every time I came closer, it seemed so far away.

The battle of head and heart seems to go on forever,

Holding my broken heart, even my head planned to betray.

Facing the world as I fight to prove I love you,

Judging eyes and with words no more.

I stand feeling nothing, awaiting the verdict,

Being damned and shaken to the core.

Still fighting and Feeling free, breaking shackles,

With hope in my heart and my mind.

I seek out the road looking back at what I wrong,

Seeking forgiveness and love that I may find.

Promises of 2014 - Prasad S Shetty

The year 2014 brings in hope of being better,
With great things happening around.
Peace and Understanding with conflicts resolved,
Pride of being a human being found.

The year 2014 brings in hope of being better,
with changes up in the air.
Progress and Environment going together hand in hand,
Beautiful earth finally being fair.

The year 2014 brings in hope of being better.
setting my heart to soar.
Celebrating personal triumphs of the past,
Welcoming the new year with parties and more.

The year 2014 brings in hope of being better,
for friends and family, far and near.
Praying the year showers everyone with love,
shining future with lots to cheer....

Cheering everyone for the amazing year ahead...

Season of lies

As I stare out of the window, I wonder,

Round goes the world, wonder what drives...

What is it that makes it go round asunder?

With all the science aside I think it just lies.

Compromises made at every corner,

Hoping not to hurt any ties.

Keeping a straight face though hurting inside,

What moves on is just lies.

Truth can set one free,

But who needs the conflict that arise.

Peace is something that all desire,

Even if it is based most times on lies.

Promises made in exchange of power,

Does not even matter if integrity dies.

Moving at such speed but reaching nowhere,

After all we believe in are just the lies.

The only one who knows the truth,

the one staring back from the mirror tries,

Begging to make sense of the happening,

Searching for something real amongst all the lies.

As I stare out of the window, I no longer wonder..

For I know it is just the Season of lies.

Heaven in Hell

Over the hill as I strain to reach,

Hoping for the goals I set.

I see more challenges on the path,

Trying to shake me, as closer I get.

It tends to get too much at times,

Everything seems so futile.

The journey seems too long to make,

Wishing to stop for a while.

Resting a bit on the way,

Looking back to see,

If there was an easier path I could have taken,

Changing the goal if need be.

Remembering the time spent,

Sometimes great, sometimes in the hole.

Each moment leaving a mark,

Broken bone, battered heart but soaring soul.

We look at the road yet to travel,

And see that we are not alone.

We are sure to enjoy the ride ahead,

All the pain felt till now gone.

We are renewed with strength,

Borrowing some from people we love.

The stop was important as is the journey,

Seeking new treasure trove.

 

As we travel ahead, we know,

Every mark was a story to tell.

Every pain spoke of our triumph,

Making heaven even in hell.